Weird Science

Baked good for the weekend: Apple cake from various apples I still had that I bought at the Ithaca Apple harvest Festival using the recipe for the apple cake in Sheshet.

Pregnancy observation for the weekend: My belly button has become huge – as in its opened up like a big cavern. Super strange!

Other strange pregnancy matters: I find that an increasing number of people are asking me “how are you feeling” with a somewhat over sympathetic voice. As though there is something more than “fine” that you can say to a person you hardly know that you are quickly passing in the hallway. Actually it takes me longer than the whole interaction to process that their referencing the pregnancy.

In general, I’ve been finding that my life hasn’t really changed. At least not in the usual ways – I’m eating less, exercising more, sleeping the same (well, maybe a little more). The hectic life at school doesn’t let me focus on the pregnancy too much – for good and bad. Thus, the fact that my body is physically changing is really weird and detached from anything else in my life.

When you pause to think about it, the fact that I’m growing a life in me is super bizarre. I mean, what else have I ever grown in my life? I’ve successfully killed 2 gold fish, and over a dozen plants. And, just so you don’t misunderstand me: It’s not that I’m complaining that I’m inept for this pregnancy. It’s just an observation that I’ve never had any urge or interest in growing anything, but here I am so fascinated with the growing life inside of me. Indeed, it our modern society we’re so disconnected from the origin of anything. All manufacturing starts out in a land far far away. So it’s surprising that something that happens so frequently as childbirth is still, in part, done in a manner that’s so un-facilitated.